To Blog or Not to Blog?..

That is clearly not the question. The real question is, what in the bejesus am I supposed to blog about? I'm a child wandering in the wilderness here. I'm a noob, a veritable new-born fawn in this intimidating forest of somewhat self-indulgent personal expression through text. And what you are currently reading is still but the first few steps on my fairly feeble, wobbly little social media legs.
Luckily for me, I love to write and I also have a tendency to babble.
But what if people don't like it? What if no one reads it? What if I have too many beverages one night and say something outlandish and make a complete ass-clown of myself? What if.. [insert any remotely negative scenario here]?

I'm no motivational speaker. As a matter of fact, from my own introverted perspective, I always felt that my self-effacing nature was one of my defining qualities. But as I type this now, I realize that it wasn't just the self-doubt that defined who I am today. It was me fighting against it.
When I was 14, I remember being nervous about ever picking up the guitar in the first place. I was afraid that I wouldn't be any good at it. But I did it anyway. When I got a chance to play with other guys from school, I almost didn't. I was worried that I wouldn't be able to hang, that I wouldn't be good enough. But I did it anyway. Then came learning new instruments, actually stepping on a stage, joining new bands, singing a song in front of someone, writing my own songs (and letting people hear them), and any combination of all of these things many times over. When I look back now, the underlying theme was the same every single time. A part of me didn't want to do things out of some warped sense of inadequacy, but I still felt that it was what I should be doing. So regardless of my fears, I did it anyway.

In both figurative and literal terms, that's how the new album got released. The whole process has been a constant string of things that I was scared of doing, but I did them anyway. While life keeps moving along, as it has a tendency to do, I know now that this parallel between what I 'could' do and what I feel like I 'should' do will never go away. And now that I have started recognizing the differences between the two, I don't want it to. Without options, you can't make a choice. So with that being said, I didn't really want to write a blog post just now. But for some reason, I just felt that I should.

As time goes on, there will be a few staples here. I'm definitely planning to address some of the interest that I've gotten about my recording and songwriting processes, I'll be talking about music in general, and I'm sure that I'll also be prone to ramble about whatever random subjects cross my mind. I'd love any input/conversation from fans or visitors about current blogs, and I also welcome suggestions/advice about future blog topics. 




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