New Old Shitty Music : The Found Tracks

A few years ago I had a catastrophic computer/backup hard drive malfunction. I lost the multitrack recordings for all the songs that I had written and recorded from the mid 00’s to 2017. Around the same general timeframe, I was nearing the tumultuous end of an unfortunate several year long pharmaceutical roller coaster ride that began after I was diagnosed with Narcolepsy (an experiment that ended up causing more problems than it solved). Let’s just say things spun off the rails a bit. Anyway, at one point before the technological meltdown, I was working on 2 or 3 (or more) vastly different versions of some of these songs at once. One might be more punk, another version of the same song might be more bluesy or hard rock or hip-hop/country (lol, no lie on that last one).

Lyrics, melodies, instrument parts and arrangements (along with recording and mixing) were all often in their own constant state of flux and these are just snapshots from a random point in time for each song. The sound quality is all over the place as none of them were originally meant to be heard in the states they’re currently in, but I’ve tried to make them listenable. I actually had to re-record many of these out of the headphone jack on my trusty old iPod classic.

It’s a little painful to share things that weren’t “done”, especially when I know there were many better versions. But then again, I consider the fact that there were also a bunch of songs that I don’t have any versions of at all. Some that I’ve forgotten, that no one will ever hear. For a while I thought no one would ever hear any of these either, and one could make a good argument that they still shouldn’t hear some of them ;). But honestly, losing all that stuff resulted in a tremendous sense of loss for me. I had to come to terms with the fact that it all still had value, even if no one else ever heard it. It didn’t matter whether it ate a bag of dicks outright, or if no one else ever heard it. Because I was doing what made me happy along the way. And doing it nearly kept me partially sane! ;) While I’ve made peace with the fact that the most rewarding part of the process for me is the act of creating music rather than sharing or trying to promote it, I also felt like there was no reason not to put a little work in to share some representation of all the hours of fun I was having over all those years. I feel like sharing these songs may also help disperse that little black cloud of “unfinished things” for me. Even if I decide to revisit any of these ideas in the future, I believe sharing them will help me move on a bit and focus on the new. I’m looking forward to getting back to working on new music. I’ve been mentally dangling it as a reward for working hard to get this project done. Going through this process has helped me reconnect a bit with the past, and now I’m excited to close this chapter and see what the next page has in store.

I’m on all vocals and guitars, bass, percussion, and some keys/virtual instruments, some drums and a few other odds and ends. Any other parts are either programming I did or loops I arranged to fit the songs.

So with all the babbling done, I (sort of) proudly present this batch of misfit songs. “State of Disrepair: The Found Tracks”

Oh, and P.S. - Thank you for being a friend.

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